Saturday, April 11, 2009

Dazed and Confused

An unexpected multiply user invited me to be his contact. His name is Ping Medina, thought he's related to the local veteran actor Pen Medina. I was right! I don't know how he stumbled upon my multiply site and wondered if he liked my site that's why he added me to be his contact.

I checked on his site and I felt that we could be good friends if we would have a chance to meet. We somehow have the same interests, I could say based from the stuffs in his site. Sounds lame and a little bit immature for some, but I want to think that finding his site is a sign. A sign that I should really grab every chance I've got to do what I really want to do in my life. Ping is into film and photography. And I want to do the same thing for quite a long time now. But look where I am, still a slave into this fucking law school prison cell. Don't get me wrong, I really wanted to be a lawyer, but I want to do film and photography. I know I had to choose, and I chose to stay in Law School. But right now I don't know if I made the right choice. If you'd ask me right now if I am happy with what I am doing you'll just probably get a NO for an answer. And for sure I am not.

Quitting lawschool would really quite make a stir on the people close to me, most especially my family. Yeah, it may sound stupid of me to quit when I am in my last year (well probably). But this is how I feel right now. I want to pursue what I really want to do. I've been missing a lot of things. And I don't know if I am even losing the time and opportunity to drive myself out of lawschool and venture in what I want in life. They say there shouldn't be any regrets in this life, but who are they to say that? Who are they to stop a person from looking back and saying what-if? Who are they to say that one cannot go back to where he was before and start anew?

I wanted to be a lawyer to help a lot of people, but I also wanted to capture into photos and film life. I want to tell stories through film and photos. Some say in this life you got to make a choice and for sure it ain't easy, it's driving me nuts. Haay, if only I could do both.

Borrowing from an 80's movie, I'm damn 'dazed and confused'..

By the way Ping has a resto in Tomas Morato you might want to check it out, it's "PENPEN"

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