Dazed and Confused

An unexpected multiply user invited me to be his contact. His name is Ping Medina, thought he's related to the local veteran actor Pen Medina. I was right! I don't know how he stumbled upon my multiply site and wondered if he liked my site that's why he added me to be his contact.

I checked on his site and I felt that we could be good friends if we would have a chance to meet. We somehow have the same interests, I could say based from the stuffs in his site. Sounds lame and a little bit immature for some, but I want to think that finding his site is a sign. A sign that I should really grab every chance I've got to do what I really want to do in my life. Ping is into film and photography. And I want to do the same thing for quite a long time now. But look where I am, still a slave into this fucking law school prison cell. Don't get me wrong, I really wanted to be a lawyer, but I want to do film and photography. I know I had to choose, and I chose to stay in Law School. But right now I don't know if I made the right choice. If you'd ask me right now if I am happy with what I am doing you'll just probably get a NO for an answer. And for sure I am not.

Quitting lawschool would really quite make a stir on the people close to me, most especially my family. Yeah, it may sound stupid of me to quit when I am in my last year (well probably). But this is how I feel right now. I want to pursue what I really want to do. I've been missing a lot of things. And I don't know if I am even losing the time and opportunity to drive myself out of lawschool and venture in what I want in life. They say there shouldn't be any regrets in this life, but who are they to say that? Who are they to stop a person from looking back and saying what-if? Who are they to say that one cannot go back to where he was before and start anew?

I wanted to be a lawyer to help a lot of people, but I also wanted to capture into photos and film life. I want to tell stories through film and photos. Some say in this life you got to make a choice and for sure it ain't easy, it's driving me nuts. Haay, if only I could do both.

Borrowing from an 80's movie, I'm damn 'dazed and confused'..

By the way Ping has a resto in Tomas Morato you might want to check it out, it's "PENPEN"