Sunday, March 11, 2012
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Isang araw palang ang nilalagi niya doon pero pakiramdam niya isang taon ng nakagapos ang kanyang buong katawan sa karimlan.
Hindi ko naman masisi ang nagdala sa kanya doon dahil hanggang ngayon hindi ko naman alam kung sino ang nagsasabi ng totoo.
Kung siya mismo hindi alam kung paano pananatilihing buhay ang ulirat sa kinalalahyan niya ngayon, paano pa kaya ako. Kung alam lang niya na sa bawat segundong pumatak iniisip ko pa din kung paano ko siya matutulungan.
Nakakaawa ang itsura nya noong nagkaroon ako ng oras na dumalaw. Nanglilimahid ang kanyang mukha na animo’y isang batang sumuot sa isang kwebang punung-puno ng sapot ng gagamba.
Napabuntung-hininga na lang ako at walang nasambit na ni isang salita. Niyakap ko siya. Mabilis ang tibok ng kanyang puso, para bang may humahabol sa kanya. Naramdaman kong humihikbi siya. Hanggang sa unti-unting tumulo ang kanyang luha.
“Pagod na Pagod na ‘ko!, Hindi ko na alam kung makakaya ko pang mabuhay ng isa pang araw na kasama ang mga taong ni minsan sa buhay ko ay hindi ko pinangarap na makasiping sa pagtulog.”
Awang-awa na ako sa kanya. Gusto kong umiyak pero hindi ko magawa. Hindi ko kayang ipakita sa kanyang napanghihinaan ng loob ang kaisa-isang nagbibigay sa kanya ng kaunting pag-asa matakasan ang karimlang kinalalagyan niya.
Tumunog ang hudyat ng pamamaalam. Gusto ko mang manatili ngunit talagang limitado ang pagkakataong ibinigay sa akin. Nagpaalam ako sa kanya sabay sambit ang mga salitang, ‘Babalikan kita, at sa pagbalik ko asahan mo ang magandang balita.’ Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit. Hinawakan ko ang kanyang kamay at hinimas ito gaya ng ginagawa ko dati.
Lumisan ako baon ang ngiting ibinigay niya sa akin. Nagbigay ito sa akin ng pag-asang sa huli ay mabibigyang linaw ang lahat ng hinuha ng marami. Maging ang mga tanong sa aking isipan. Mga tanong na hinayaan ko nalang na manatili sa aking sarili. Mga tanong na nagpatikom sa aking bibig nang makita ko ang mga paghihirap na dinaranas niya. Mga tanong na gusto kong sa bibig nya mismo manggaling ang mga kasagutan.
Alas otso na ng gabi nang ako’y makauwi. Pagbukas ko ng pinto, tumambad sa aking harapan ang kanyang litrato. Naalala ko tuloy ang ngiting pabaon niya sakin bago ko siya lisanin. Naalala ko lahat ng mga pagkakataong uuwi ako ng bahay at maaamoy ko ang masarap na halimuyak ng kanyang nilulutong pagkain para sa’kin. Naalala ko ang walang katapusang kwentuhang akala mo’y hindi kami mauubusan at wala ng bukas.
Ang sarap balikan ng nakaraan. Ang sarap alalahanin ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa’yo kahit gaano kahirap ang buhay. Ang sarap sariwain ng mga pangarap na kaunti nalang ay abot-kamay na.
Binalikan ko ang gabi na ni sa panaginip ay hindi ko akalaing magaganap. Tinanong ko ang aking sarili kung bakit nangyayari ang mga bagay na kinasasadlakan ko ngayon? Bakit sa mga oras na akala mo lahat ay nasa tamang lugar, biglang may lilitaw na aberya?
Alam kong may dahilan ang bawat kaganapang nangyayari sa isang tao, maganda man o panget. Ngunit minsan hindi ko na alam kung pinaglalaruan ba tayo ng tadhana. Bakit kailangang lagi mo nalang tuklasin ang kahulugan ng mga bagay?
Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog ako sa paghahanap ng mga kasagutan sa aking mga katanungang hanggang sa ngayo’y hindi ko alam kung paano mabibigyang linaw o posible pa bang mabigyang linaw.
Akala ko’y nananaginip ako, ngunit totoo palang tumutunog ang cellphone ko. “Unknown Number” ang nagregister sa screen ng cellphone ko. Sinagot ko ang cellphone. Tinanong kung ako nga ba ang nakalagay na pangalan sa kanilang record. Sumagot ako ng, ‘oo’. Pagkasabi pa lang ng aking kausap na, “Masamang Balita po”, kinutuban na ako.
Patuloy na binibigay ng kausap ko ang detalye at ang mga dapat kung gawin, ngunit sa mga pagkakataong iyon, para bang biglang tumigil ang mundo ko. Para bang nawalan ako ng pakiramdam. Para bang panandaliang tumigil tumanggap ng kahit ano pa mang impormasyon ng utak ko.
Ilang minuto ang lumipas at napansin kong may dugong tumutulo sa aking mga kamay. Nakita ko nalang na basag ang picture frame kung saan nakalagay ang kanyang litrato. Hindi ko naramdaman ang sakit ng mga bubog. Siguro nga’y naging manhid na ang aking katawan sa sakit na ibinigay ng kanyang paglisan.
Tumungo ako sa may bintana. Naramdaman ko ang kakaibang simoy na animoy niyayakap ako. Sa mga pagkakataong iyon alam kong kailanman hindi ako mag-iisa.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
For me, it’s the man from Liverpool, John Lennon. Even if I was born after his death, I still consider him as my role model. Personally, I know I would have been shattered and would have been hurt to the core, if I were alive at that time when Lennon was shot to death.
No one could contradict the far-reaching impact on popular music culture of John Lennon. Even most Filipino Bands out there could tell that they have been influenced by the music of John Lennon.
I couldn’t think of anyone at least in the history of music who stood up for his beliefs and ideals like John Lennon. He has always been an epitome of doing what he know is right and not trying to be someone else just to be liked by everyone.
He was not afraid to speak out against what he thought was wrong, and also what he thought was an injustice. He willingly took the consequences for his actions, but he was also determined that no one would change his word without a fight.
His thoughts, ideas, and actions may have offended a lot of people, but I think, he was just a person with amazing pride. He didn't care what anyone thought of him and stood up for what was right. And I think everyone should take a piece of his philosophy and live, learn and love.
In one of his interviews, he said:
“Part of me would like to be accepted by all facets of society and not be this loudmouthed lunatic musician. But I cannot be what I am not.- John Lennon
I admire people who do not have to be like everyone else just to gain the attention ofeveryone. I admire John Lennon for standing up for what he believes in and being the person he really is without having to pretend.
His message has always been about peace and love and that we should live the best we can.
John Lennon is best known for his music and his idealistic view of humanity. He believed people could find peace, and could celebrate life with music, harmony, and decency. Lennon's iconic songs came to inspire and symbolize the ideals of the masses. His music spoke to for and about humanity, and this is a gift, which not all artists have.
He dreamt of stopping war and uniting people regardless of religious or cultural differences. He along with his wife Yoko Ono became part of the Peace and Anti-War Movement during his time. He and fellow Beatles members even went on trips to talk about world issues.
A line from the song “IMAGINE”, which one journalist said, would squeeze a tear out of the most cynical among us, goes:
“Imagine all the people living life in peace. You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will be as one.”
The Beatles. It all started with a dream.
The Beatles, started with a dream. A dream of a young boy who just wanted to play his guitar, sing, entertain, and make known to the world his wisdom through his music. It was formed by John Lennon, with his friend Paul McCartney.
The Beatles debuted in 1962 and within a couple of years, became the biggest cultural event in the world. They represented the change in society and became the new visionary of rock and roll.
Lennon’s success as an artist was all because of his hardwork, enthusiasm and a huge amount of positivity. John Lennon was also a person who liked to push himself, and others to the limit. These attributes inspired me to do best in whatever endeavor I put myself into, especially right now that I am taking up law.
In one of Lennon’s interviews, he said:
“You make your own dream. That's the Beatles' story, isn't it? Produce your own dream. It's quite possible to do anything, but not to put it on the leaders and the parking meters. Don't expect Jimmy Carter or Ronald Reagan or John Lennon or Yoko Ono or Bob Dylan or Jesus Christ to come and do it for you. You have to do it yourself. There's nothing new under the sun. All the roads lead to Rome. And people cannot provide it for you. I can't wake you up. You can wake you up. I can't cure you. You can cure you.”
"It's fear of the unknown. The unknown is what it is. And to be frightened of it is what sends everybody scurrying around chasing dreams, illusions, wars, peace, love, hate, all that... it's all illusion. Unknown is what it is. Accept that it's unknown and it's plain sailing. Everything is unknown... then you're ahead of the game.”
John Lennon has touched the world through his music beyond all else. He just didn’t give the world so much music and influence, he gave up his freedom and ultimately his life.
No one knows what else John Lennon would have contributed in this world if his life was not short-lived. But one thing I know for sure is that any man that has a gift like that of Lennon could only do good in this society of ours if he had only been given the chance. For this, John Lennon will live on in my mind not only as a role model but as a true working class hero.