Wednesday, January 30, 2008

How's its going to be? by 3rd eyeblind

I was LSSed again when I've heard the song from my all-time fave band 3eb! Here it is!!

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be, How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the
Doorway we spent time in, swings empty
Don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion oblivion
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
How's it going to be, How's it going to be
How's it going to be

Monday, January 28, 2008


What a way to spend a Sunday after the midterms! After my "DATE" at SM South Mall, went to Festival Mall, had snack at Kenny Rogers and then watched ALVIN and the Chipmunks.

Well okay, for the benefit of those who haven't watched it yet, here's a 10-minute review: (Gee its almost 8am! I was up since 3:30AM!)

In a tree farm, three musically inclined chipmunks, Alvin, Simon and Theodore, find their tree cut down and sent to Los Angeles. Once there, they meet the frustrated songwriter David Seville (JASON LEE), and despite a poor house wrecking first impression, they impress him with their singing talent. Seeing the opportunity for success, both human and chipmunks make a pact for them to sing his songs. While that ambition proves a frustrating struggle with the difficult trio, the dream does come true after all. However, that success presents its own trials as their unscrupulous record executive, Ian Hawke, plans to break up this family to exploit the boys. Can Dave and the Chipmunks discover what they really value amid the superficial glamor around them? (courtesy of IMDB.COM)

It was an interesting movie, and kinda get teary-eyed!(haha!), when the chipmunks went away from Dave's house because they thought he doesn't consider them family, which the three chipmunks always wanted to have! Funny thing was when, the chipmunks and Dave reunited, Alvin was quite not interested in being mushy and saying he missed Dave! If you want to relax and feel good! Watch the movie! Certainly not only for kids but for the kid at heart as well!

Wow I really did finish this review right on time! haha!

Here's the full trailer:

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Current LSS

Again Lyrics
Artist:Lenny Kravitz

I've been searching for you
I heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Now that you are walking right through my door

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

A sacred gift of heaven
For better, worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Nor take your crown, never

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And everytime I've always known
That you were there, upon your throne
A lonely queen without her king
I longed for you, my love forever

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

Midterms Aftermath

I don't want to expect high grades in my midterms exams, but I think I did quite good in some. But as you know, everythings unexpected and unpredictable in law school! What I wished for is that my efforts would be compensated enough! I'd be happy with that!


I am quite appalled when I have heard a news from a friend that he is taking a leave in law school for financial reasons. He cited some advantages for doing so, which I seemed to agree. I never thought that we have the somehow the same line of thinking. Well, lets see if I could take really take the big leap, as I've said my previous post.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Taking the Big Leap

2008 I believe could be one of those years in my existence that I would have to make a big leap!

I'm almost done (well hopefully!), with my 2 years of Law School and I am thinking of taking a time off. I feel like I need a break to release the stress that the toxic law school has caused me. Another thing, I wanted to experience working. I just don't know, it's like I want to breathe a new air. I want a new atmosphere, an atmosphere that is not as stressful as law school. An easy atmoshphere where I could just have coffee and converse just about anything with people in it.

NAKAKASAWA! that could be the right term to describe what I am feeling about Law School right now. I am still a regular student, with no failing grades, and with that one could say that, "Oh sayang naman! if you're going to take a leave of absence!", and other things for that matter, but I want to give myself a chance to grow, to really stand on my own (somehow!), and I think by working I could have that!

It has been quite a number of times that I have turned back on a job offer, I always back-off when I am almost there! I guess it's time to get away with my justifications of not taking the opportunity! Baka in the end wala na!..

I guess this really is the right time to take the big leap!.. I guess it's time to leave behind as of the moment those things that I have been used to, the unrelenting support my Mom is giving me, financially and emotionally, my law school buddies who in one way or another I have shared my life with, which just happened. Those people who I have cared for yet at the middle of being together I have been untrusting and questioning their loyalty. I guess its time to prove that I am wrong.. I guess its time to really stand on my own, renew myself so that when I go back next year, I am surely ready to continue another two years of my dream!

Monday, January 7, 2008


As I've said from my previous post I've decided not to go to class today, so when I woke up at 12pm and had my lunch, went to Festival Mall and had my day out. After doing a favor to a friend through canvassing a scrapbook I decided to sit in one of the benches at the ground floor. There I decided to observe the people passing by, and scribbled notes on my fone. After my observation, I decided to watch a very controversial movie, as for me, "Banal", alone! Controversial, because it was Cesar Apolinario's directorial debut, and he won the award for the Best Director and Best Story in the recently concluded Metro Manila Film Fest Awards. Well actually, the cast was great, with Christopher de Leon and Pen Medina, but I find it not that spectacular, well maybe for budget considerations that is. But it's good for a beginner director. After watching, went to see Madj at SM Tunasan and to our surprise Olga and her son and mom was also there! I even became a babysitter to Xander, Olga's son, for a few minutes and it was fun! When Olga went home, Madj and I had coffee and talked on some cool things she had experienced the past weekend which made me want to experience the same things.

Anyway, here's my essay based on the observation I had at the mall:

Ang daming makikita sa mall, ang daming pwedeng puntahan. Madalas akong pumunta sa mall, minsan titingin lang ng mga damit, mga dvd, cds, magazines, libro at iba pa, kakain sa mga paborito kong restaurant, pagkatapos, lalakad-lakad lang, nagbabakasakaling may makasalubong na kakilala at mayayang mag-kape man lang at makipagkamustahan. Dahil sa madalas kong ginagawa itong mga bagay na to, nakakasawa din pala, tulad na lang ng isang pagkakataong hindi ako pumasok sa eskwela dahil sa hindi pa ko handa na humarap sa mga kaklase ko at sa aking mga propesor, naisipan kong tumambay sa mall. Hindi nako nang-abala pa ng ilang kaibigan dahil alam ko may mga trabaho sila sa kani-kanilang mga opisina, kaya mag-isa lang talaga ako na tumambay sa mall. Sabi ko nga, nakakasawa din pala yung magpalakad-lakad at nakakapagod din pala, minsan nakakahilo din, naisipan ko nalang, umupo na lang sa mga "benches" na nakapaligid sa may lowerground floor. Sa isang sulok ako pumuwesto. Naabutan ko ang dalawang mama na mukhang wiling-wili sa pag-uusap. May isa ding babae na nakaupo doon na napansin ko na lang ay nakatungo na at mukhang natutulog.

Ilang minuto pa ang nakalipas, napakadami ko ng naobserbahan na mga taong dumadaan sa aking harapan. Nakaka-wili din palang gawain to. Halata mong iba-iba talaga ng estado sa buhay yung mga taong dumadaan sa harapan ko. May mga estudyante, may magsyota, mag-asawa, magkaibigan. May mukhang tanga na hindi alam kung san sya pupunta. May mukhang nahihiyang magtanong kung san ba makikita yung pupuntahan nya. May mga maaliwalas ang mukha, may mga nakasimangot at di maipinta ang mukha.

May mga nakapormal, may mga naka-rugged. May sexy ang suot. May mukhang hahabulin ng plantsa ang suot, may parang mantel ng dining table nila ang suot, may nakapambahay. May naglalakad habang kumakain, may naka-tsinelas, may naka-havainas, may naka-chuck taylor, may naka-heels. May makapal ang make-up. May mukhang hindi naligo. May mukhang bagong paligo.

May baduy, may japorms. May spike ang buhok, may kalbo, may long hair, may afro, may emo, may hip-hop.

May mga pamilya kasama ang mga anak. May mag-lolo, may mag-lola. May mukhang balik-bayan. May pinay na may kasamang kanong matangkad, unang pumasok sa isip ko eh naka-jackpot si pinay dahil ang pangarap na US citizenship nakamit na nya.

May babading-bading. May boyish. May macho. May maton. May sexy.
May mukhang nanliligaw sa pakipot na babae.
May mukhang tourguide. May mukhang mode.
May mukhang katulong at may totoong katulong na naka-maid's uniform.
May yayang hinahabol ang inaalagaang bata.
May nanay na akay-akay ang anak. Mayroon ding nagpapa-dede ng anak. Mayroon namang hila-hila sa stroller si baby.
May nanay na pinapagalitan ang anak, na iyak ng iyak. Mayroon namang pinapagalitan dahil nagtutu-turo ng kung ano-ano.

May mataba, may payat. May sobrang taba at sobrang payat. May matangkad. May bansot. May matangos ang ilong. May pango. May malaki ang eyebag. May mukhang puyat na nagtatrabaho sa call center
May nerd. May elitista. May mukhang shopaholic. May mukhang walang pambili at window shopping lang.

May Amerikano, May Chinese, May Japanese, May Koreano, May Negro, May Bumbay, May Muslim.

May mabango. May mabaho. May masang-sang ang amoy ng pabango.

May text addict. Mga taong eskandaloso ang cellfone at mga eskandaloso talagang tao dahil habang naglalakad ay nagtetelebabad.

May nakatingin sa malayo. May tulala. May tumatawang mag-isa. May malungkot.

May nag-iisa na tulad kong parang may hinahanap pero di makita. May naglalakad nang mabilis pero parang walang patutunguhan.

Nakakatuwang isipin na sa mall natin makikita ang iba't-ibang uri ng tao. Dito natin makikita ang uri ng pamumuhay meron ang isang tao. Kahit sa pisikal na anyo lamang nila, makikita at mararamdaman mo kung paano nila hinaharap ang buhay nila.

Nakakatuwang isipin na sa karanasan kong ito, nakaramdam ako ng gaan ng loob. Gustong ihalintulad ang buhay ko sa isang mall. Sa isang mall na sari-saring tao ang pumapasok. Iba't-ibang tao na may iba't-ibang pananaw sa buhay. Iba't-ibang tao na may kanya-kanyang pagkatao na dapat kong tanggapin ng walang pag-aalinlangan tulad na lamang ng isang mall na walang diskriminasyon kung sino ang papasukin nila.

Sa karanasan kong ito, natutunan kong dapat kong tanggapin kung sino man ang mga taong nagiging parte ng buhay ko. Maging panandalian man o pangmatagalan ang hinahain nilang pakikisama sa akin. Maging ano man ang intensyon nila, makakasama man o makakabuti ito sa akin. Hindi ko malalaman ang halaga ng isang tao kung hindi ko bubuksan ang pinto ko sa kanila. Kung hindi ko hahayaang patunayan nila ang maidudulot nilang maganda o masama sa akin, na sa bandang huli ay masasabi kong makapagbibigay sakin ng lakas para ipagpatuloy ko ang pagharap sa buhay.

Well that's about it! If you have any suggestions for a title that would be highly appreciated! :)

This day was superb! I really had a great time, well by myself actually, (though I met up with Madj and Olga).. I had the time to reflect on a lot of things and somehow I have released the tension inside me. So I'm ready to go to school tomorrow! Good luck to me!

Last Minute Mood Swing Syndrome

Arrgh! Iba talaga ang mood swings ko! Classes resume today, and here I am at 3:20AM still online making a post out of my "last-minute mood swing syndrome". Minsan I really can't understand myself na talaga. May times that because I am very much overwhelmed by an experience, I let it penetrate my senses fully to the point that wala na ko pakialam if I am making the right decisions. I have a very crazy personality talaga, and I damn hate it!

So 3:24 AM na! kamusta naman? talagang hindi na talaga ako papasok tomorrow. ALthough ulit lang yung topic for Insurance tomorrow, I just don't feel like going to school tomorrow. Parang ayoko muna pa makita mga classmates ko. Minsan ayoko nga makicommunicate sa isang law student eh. I find myself complicated na nga, tapos law student din makakaharap ko! haay! Ilang beses na sumagi sa isip ko ang mag-drop out of law school, but with the constant motivation from friends I'm still here and luckily I'm still a regular student, wala pa ko binabagsak! Minsan I am thinking din, that there are a lot of students that are more deserving to me na dapat wala pa binabagsak kasi masipag naman sila. Anyway, as I've said, many times have I thought of dropping law school but still I'm here. Sometimes kasi I am proud of saying out loud that, "Ok firm na ang decision ko, tutuloy na ko sa Law School!" Pero as I've said din sa ilang friends ko, ayoko ng nagbabakasyon talaga at natetengga sa bahay kasi hinahangin talaga ang utak ko. And itong nararamdaman at desisyon kong wag pumasok bukas eh, part ng pagkahangin ng utak ko! Haayzz! Nahihiya na talaga ako sa parents ko kung alam lang nila tong ginagawa ko! Nakuwento ko din nga sa isang friend kahapon na kaya din siguro hindi ako matuloy-tuloy mag-drop out eh dahil din sa mom ko, nakakahiya din kasi sayang din yung libong nagastos ko sa tuition, sa libro, sa allowance.

I wanted to be a lawyer. I know there's a lot of opportunities in store for me. I know, by being one, I can utilize my skills and bring to life my interests in writing and educating people, and doing community service. A question bugs my head, on whether lawyering is the best way to do all of these. I know one could argue that it's not. But I really want to finish what I have started and I hope I could continue everything all the way to the finish line!

Later at around 10AM, I'll go out and think, think and think. I even want to go to church and pray, so that by Tuesday I'll be ready to face my classmates and professors. I just need one last day out to release the tension inside me!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

A night to remember!

Met a friend at Festival Mall at around 7pm, I thought we would be going to any of the bars within the area, but he insisted on going at the back of the mall. We stayed there for quite a number of hours and talked on a lot of things. Things which I never expected I could share to anyone else, except for a few of my closest friends.

The good thing about this night is that I get to experience something I've never experienced before which at first seemed to me unenjoyable. At around past 10pm We walked around the whole alabang area while we continue talking, starting from Festival Mall, to Metropolis, the Alabang Public Market, to the intersection between the course through alabang zapote and the west service road, the corporate avenue, and the streets where the big buildings around Alabang are located. It was quite a fun night and I never thought it felt good to walk during the night at Alabang, where there are few people, few cars, bright lights and cool air breeze. Thanks to my friend who shared with me the experience! It was really relaxing!

Thursday, January 3, 2008


I first heard the documentary film, "An inconvenient truth" from my professor in Public International Law, Ambassador Tolentino, who happens to be an advocate of environmental law. Well after downloading it from limewire, I was able to watch it last night and it somehow opened my eyes to the possibility that global warming really could devastate the world we are living in. Though, a lot of debates are going on right now after the film has been shown, whether Al Gore has a strong scientific proof on everything he has presented, still I believe we must do something to prevent damage to the world.

AN INCONVENIENT TRUTH, shows Vice President Al Gore's fervent crusade to stop global warming, which he did after his defeat in the 2000 Presidential election. Al Gore depicts some of the misconceptions that surround global warming.

Al Gore, I believe indirectly ridiculed the Bush Administration when he said that we should be more or equally concerned with some other threats to the world than terrorism, and one of this is Global Warming.

Al Gore presented a series of statistics, showing the rise of the temperature of the earth due to global warming, which he points out to be caused by the greenhouse gases. A history of the world geography, showing how the mountains like Mt. Kilimanjaro have changed a lot through the years from being a "snowy mountain" to an almost "dry" one. Al Gore holds that the catastrophes like strong hurricanes are some of the harsh consequences of global warming. He gave a picture of what lies ahead if we continually procrastinate on halting global warming's progress. He presented what's going to happen if Greenland and West Antarctica would collapse and be submerged into a high level of sea-water caused by the melted ice. He depicted that Manhattan in New York, the very point where the World Trade Center Memorial is being built; Florida; India and Bangladesh; Beijing and Shanghai in China; and the Netherlands would be extremely submerged into water through the rise of sea level. In consequence of this, there would be a lot of refugees who will seek some place to transfer their homes to.

He also gave a history of the tragedies and catastrophies the world has encountered. From the diseases, viruses that have caused deaths to the extinction of the species of animals and plants.

According to Al Gore there is a Collission between civilization and the earth. This is caused by: 1) Population Explosion, in consequence of which a rising demand for food, water and other resources are at hand; 2) Scientific and Technological Revolution. According to Al Gore New Technology dramatically altered the predictable consequences of our old habits and old technology, and lastly 3)the Economic Patterns we have. In line with this, Al Gore was somewhat apologetic, when he depicted their family business of tobacco in the past, which according to him contributed to the climate crisis we are experiencing right now.

The crusade for halting Global Warming has long began. It started from the conclusions of scientists who were ridiculed and silenced by the previous administrations according to Al Gore, because "facts lead them to an inconvenient truth". There were even 928 articles written in the US on global warming, specifically denouncing greenhouse gases, but these were doubted and criticized as having no strong bases. Al Gore criticized how US took a long time to be a signatory to the Kyoto Protocol,which is an agreement by countries with the objective of reducing Greenhouse gases that cause climate change.

Al Gore ultimately brings a persuasive argument that we can no longer afford to view global warming as a political issue - rather, it is the biggest moral challenges facing our global civilization.

I liked the end of the documentary, where in between the credits they have shown some things we should do to change the way we live and solve the climate crisis. Here are some:

1. Reduce carbon emissions
2. Buy energy efficient appliances
3. Weatherize your house
4. Re-cycle, Re-use, Reduce
5. Switch to renewable sources of energy
6. Plant lots of trees.
7. Speak up in your community and get Organized and take back the power
8. Call radio stations and write newspapers, if they don't listen make your own media.
9. Help farmers grow food for local markets with organic methods.
10. Raise fuel economy standards, require lower emissions from automobiles.

And this is I liked the most! "DEMOCRACY ISN'T SOMETHING YOU HAVE, IT IS SOMETHING YOU DO! So Vote for leaders who pledge to solve the crisis! Write to Congress!, if they don't listen Run for Congress! And if you believe in Prayer, Pray that people will find the strength to change! Learn as much as you can from the crisis and put it into action!

"What gets us into trouble is not what we don't know. It's what we know for sure that just ain't so." - Mark Twain

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Cool Thoughts

These are some quotes, ideas, thoughts that have been running through my mind the past weeks! Inspiring.. Worth-noting.. and very true!

Karma comes back to bite you in the butt.

Be the change that you want to see in the world.

Sometimes we search for answers that are right in front of us.

Being happy is when for once in your life you'll never have to work for it.

You may know what you want but a lot of things will happen along the way.

It's harder everyday.

It's tough being me.

If there's something you could do, have fun.

Maybe tomorrow the Good Lord will take you away.

Too many words left unspoken.

What doesn't kill you will make you stronger.

Holiday Update

12.25.2007 Christmas Day. Went to Calamba in Laguna, my home province to visit my relatives there. I'm happy I got the chance to have a nice time chatting with them. I became a Santa for a day too when I gave them gifts. Well it was really a nice feeling when I get to see my goddaughter Eunice because its like a year ago I think that I saw her.

After my visit in Calamba, went to see Danilo,for a gimik in Alabang. We went to see an MMFF film, along with Lawrence his cousin and Jen.

12.30.07. Post Kanlungan Xmas Party. Met up with Olga in the morning to accompany her in going at Danilo's Crib, where the party is to be held. We were the early birds! haha! After waiting for the others, we had our hefty lunch! After our lunch, we sing our hearts out to the videoke and had a time to reminisce our college days! Everyone was surprised when JR, who is in Dubai right now, called! So we passed the phone to each other and had a short talk with him!

Melvin and Olga went home early, which was followed by Anet and Hapi. Cha, Madj, Jen and I decided to stay and we chilled at the LB Square and after dropping home Cha at their house, Madj, Jen and I decided to sleep over at Danilo's house.

I hope, we could push through with our plan of going back at Balai Beach in San Juan Batangas before Danilo leaves for Australia! Well that's it for now!


It's been quite a number of Christmas' and New Years'now that I've been trying to be happy, but maybe you'll not get it when you keep yourself confined in a situation which you yourself cannot contain and brings you to solitude. I could say that I'm a prisoner of my situation and I just don't think I could get a pardon from it, and so I might as well wait until I've served my sentence. Why? Maybe because I chose to be in this situation, I've embraced it like I don't have a choice. One thing maybe that I could consider to continue is the fact that I've always get through all the crap in my life. I just hope I won't run out of reasons to go on.

Finally! I'm at Peace!

* I think I need to be satisfied with everything I am getting from them.

** I should not expect more from them and accept that there’s a difference in maturity that we have. Having a different level of maturity I cannot expect the level of loyalty or trust even companionship that is constantly on my mind.

*** I hate goodbyes, been to many already. Just the thought of it pains me bigtime! But despite this, I’ve come to realize that nothing is really permanent and if something or someone would leave you, it simply means that they have served their purpose, and it’s time to let go. It’s time to move on. It would only be a bonus for you if even the thing/person which have become a part of you, after serving its/his/her purpose, stays with you. In line with this, the following quote in Tuesdays with Morrie is noteworthy: “Learn to detach. Don’t cling to things because everything is impermanent. But detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. You let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it.”

With all of these said, and to end this post, I can say that I’m quite over with the phase I’ve been through the past weeks. And I think the best part of the phase I’ve been through is that I’ve learned that we should enjoy the moments we have with people/things around us, while they are serving their purpose in our life.

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