Seasons in the Sun

One of those Rare Nirvana covers, "Seasons in the Sun", original by Terry Jacks. This song was one of Kurt's favorite that's why he made a cover of it in 1993. They even switched instruments here, Kurt on drums, Dave Grohl on bass, Krist Novoselic on guitar.

Now, if you would analyze the song, it talks about death. How we should face our last days here on earth. If you'd glean from the first line of the song, it even says "Goodbye to you my trusted friend..", which Kurt changed to, "Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die.."

For some, Kurt's rendition of the song seemed like a suicide note, but for someone who has known Kurt Cobain through his journals, I won't agree with such statement. And if you're a fan of Nirvana and their music, you'll recognize how much contradictions there are in the lyrics of his songs. It's not that I want to imply that there aren't any truth about his songs and that we shouldn't believe whatever Kurt Cobain says in his songs. It's just that it supports the idea that 'what we say, may not always correspond to what we really think'. Speaking our minds is different from speaking the words coming out of our mouth.

And another thing, Kurt's songs are a bunch of poetry and whatever contradictions we may find in it only proves how great a musician he is!

Basta!!!! I firmly and strongly believe, with conviction and without any mental reservation that he didn't commit suicide, if he ever did, someone might have caused him to do it!

So here's this AWESOME VIDEO, and at the bottom Kurt's own version of the lyrics to the song..

Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die
when all the birds are singing in the sky
and all the flowers are everywhere
pretty girls are everywhere
"Think of me and i'll be there."


goodbye, papa, please pray for me
i was the black sheep of the family
"I don't know all these words
I have bought three turds
With my BB-gun I would kill birds"
(This part is different in the nirvana version to the original version by Terry Jacks. The Terry Jacks version goes as follows:
"You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
I wonder how i got along")


we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
but the hills that we climbed
were just seasons out of time

All our lives, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars that we reached were just starfish on the beach.

goodbye, michelle, my little one
"I was the apple of the shining sun.
And I have loved you every week
All my tears are salty
I think that now I will start to leave"


We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed
Were just seasons out of time

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars that we reached were just starfish on the beach.

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed
Were just seasons out of time

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars that we reached where just starfish on the beach.

Quadruple Cheesy-ness

Pardon me guys. I just can't get enough of this 'cheesy-ness' haha!! Now, this time I'm posting not just one video but four videos from four great bands. So hope you bear with my cheesyness, though this is really really going to be a tough one, 'coz this is quadruple the cheesyness of my previous posts. hehe!!

DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL

First Video: This video of "Stolen" is from one of my favorite bands 'Dashboard Confessional'. From the time I've heard their song "Hands down" I felt I needed to buy their record, well I didn't, 'coz I found out my brother has one. Haha!! Too bad they've become a little bit mainstream. I wonder when are they going to have a new album.

Here's an acoustic/orchestral version! Para mas 'cheesy'! haha!! I think this track would be a nice background music on a date. (hmmm.. thought bubble insert!) haha!!

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

AMBER PACIFIC

Second Video: This is the video of Poetically Pathetic by Amber Pacific, another favorite band of mine. Amber Pacific is a Seattle band, like Nirvana. Their songs are really great from the lyrics to the arrangement. They've just released an EP with 3 new tracks on i-tunes. The new tracks are: The Good Life; Don't Let It Fall Through and The Right Place At The Wrong Time

Here's the video of "Poetically Pathetic".

I'm Thinking of the words to say,
I'd like to think that this was fate.
Reference to a song you love,
Spell confusion with a "K"
Like a star without its strings,
I'm hanging here on these two wings.
For that smile and those eyes
I'm falling

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry truth, and make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you...

If you ever had the chance,
Would you make your life seem right?
Or would you only hold it back,
The good times, the hard, and the bad.
Whatever you say is alright,
Just as long as there's no doubt.
Could you look me in the eye
and say hopes died?

If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic?
When there's nothing more pathetic to be said

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry truth, and make me smile.
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you.

Our wish,
Each time,
Keeps me returning to you,
Night after night
Lift me up as high as the clouds that won the sky,
For you and I

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside.
You carry truth, and make me smile,
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you

You bring me out, show me light,
I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside
You carry truth, and make me smile
If it were you and me tonight,
I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you,
For you...

Third Video: This one's an old one, from The Police, the English Rock band in the 80's wherein Sting was the vocalist back then. The band who popularized the song "Every Breath you Take". The video you'll about to see is a performance by Sting of the song It's "Every Little Thing she does is Magic", which was an original from The Police. I guess most of you know this, because our very own Paolo Santos had a cover of this in one of his albums.

Though Ive tried before to tell her
Of the feelings I have for her in my heart
Every time that I come near her
I just lose my nerve
As Ive done from the start

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
Its a big enough umbrella
But its always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolve to call her up a thousand times a day
And ask her if shell marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

LAST VIDEO: And to finish this off, I'll leave you with this song from... drum roll please! hehe! Of course the list isn't complete without a song from the band of my demi-God Kurt Cobain, Nirvana! hehe! The song is "About a Girl".

I need an easy friend
I do with an ear to lend
I do think you fit this shoe
I do what you have a clue

Ill take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I cant see you every night free
I do

Im standing in your light
I do hope you have the time
I do pick up number two
I do keep a date with you

I cant see you every night free
I do, I do, I do

Heavier than Heaven (A Kurt Cobain Biopic)

TOP: L-R, Kurt Cobain; Ryan Gosling BOTTOM: L-R, Courtney Love; Scarlett Johansson

Shame on me! I'm starting to hate myself a little bit. How could I be so damn late in finding out that there's a movie coming out based on Kurt Cobain's biography. What kind of a hardcore fan am I?

Anyway, I know I can forgive myself for that in time. So according to the website where I found the information.

* The movie is based on Charles Cross's biography of Cobain, "Heavier than Heaven", which would likewise be the title of the movie.
* Courtney Love, executive producer, has said she wants actor Ryan Gosling to play her late husband Kurt Cobain in a film. (Well for those who don't know her she's the widow of Kurt Cobain and the mother of their child Frances Bean Cobain)
* Courtney who seems to be a fan of Scarlett Johansson wants that she portray her.

Well, I just hope Courtney, as executive producer won't make a trash out of this movie. But I SERIOUSLY DOUBT that the hardcore fans and loyalists would really appreciate the film, if up to now, the truth about Kurt Cobain's death has been a mystery for some and it's a fact that Love is being said to be involved in Kurt's death.

Now, based on Rollingstones Magazine pre-production has finally kicked-off, and the initial casts of the film aside from Scarlett Johansson and Ryan Gosling are:

Justin Long as Krist Noveselic, Nirvana's bassist
Topher Grace as Dave Grohl, Nirvana's drummer
Cate Blanchett as Eric Erlandson, served as Singer, guitarist, and songwriter for Nirvana Jake Gyllenhaal as Axl Rose of the Guns 'N Roses
Jack Black as King Buzzo, (Buzz Osbourne)
Emile Hirsch as Eddie Vedder, lead singer of Pearl Jam
Toni Collette as Kim Gordon, of Sonic Youth
Ron Jeremy as Tad Doyle, of the band TAD

L-R: Dave Grohl, Kurt Cobain and Krist Noveselic

Now, this isn't the first film about Kurt Cobain, if I am not mistaken i posted a review on some of them. Two of his films which was released internationally are "Last Days" in 2005, which is about a theory on how Kurt Cobain spent his last days, and "About a Son" in 2006 which basically tells a story of his childhood until he reached stardom.

I can't wait to see this new film!, and if ever I won't make it to the cinemas in time for it's showing, I promise you guys I'll commit suicide! Kiddin'! haha!!!
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*Thanks to www.NME.com and Rollingstones.

LAST DAYS

Here's a video from the 2005 film "Last Days" by Gus Van Sant as inspired by Kurt Cobain's last days alive. Background music is "Death to birth" performed by Michael Pitt who also played Blake, the main character in the film. Here's a quick synopsis from imdb.com

Introspective artist Blake is buckling under the weight of fame, professional obligations and a mounting feeling of isolation. Dwarfed by towering trees, Blake slowly makes his way through dense woods. He scrambles down an embankment to a fresh spring and undresses for a short swim. The next morning he returns to his house, an elegant, if neglected, stone mansion. Many people are looking for Blake--his friends, his managers and record label, even a private detective--but he does not want to be found. In the haze of his final hours, Blake will spend most his time by himself. He avoids the people who are living in his house, who approach him only when they want something, be it money or help with a song. He hides from one concerned friend and turns away another. He visits politely with a stranger from the Yellow Pages sales department, and he ducks into an underground rock club. He wanders through the woods and he plays a new song, one last rock and roll blowout. Finally, alone in the greenhouse, Blake will look and listen--and seek release.



Here's the lyrics to the song "Death to birth":

From ripe
To rotten
Too real
To live

Should I lie down
Or stand up
And walk around again

My eyes finally wide open up
My eyes finally wide open shut

To find the found(fount) of sound
That hears the touch of my tears
Smells the taste of all we waste
Could feed the others
But we smother each other with the necter
And pucker the sour
A bittersweet weather

It blows through our trees
Swims through our seas
Fly's through the last gasp we left
On this earth

Ohh Ohh Ohhhhh

It's a long lonely journey
From death to birth
It's a long long lonely journey
From death to...
It's a long lonely journey
From death to birth
Oh It's a long lonely journey
From death to birth

Yeaaah...

Should I die again
Should I die around
The pounds of matter
wheeling through space
I know I'll never know
Until I come face to face
With my own
With my own
With my own
With my own cold dead face
With my own wooden case

Yeaaah...

Pucker the sour
Sugar sweet weather
Blows through our trees
Swims through our seas
Fly's through the last gasp we left
On this earth

Ohhhhhh

It's a long lonely journey
from death to birth
It's a long lonely journey
from death to birth

What should I die again
Should I tell you when
The pounds of matter
wheeling through space
I know I'll never know
Unitl I come face to face

It's a long lonely journey
from death to birth
It's a long lonely journey
from death to birth

FISHY THOUGHTS

Kurt Cobain once said: “It’s okay to eat fish 'coz they don’t have any feelings..”

Now, I say, “It’s cool to be with fishes, 'coz their brain's the size of a pebble, they hardly remember any pain..”

MY ROCK HERO

I've admired Kurt Cobain since highschool. The words through the lyrics he writes struck me, maybe because it is truly the unconventional which I always try to be. His
lyrics are sometimes vague and always capable of different meanings.

The suicide of Kurt Cobain shocked almost everyone(well which some still thought isn't really a suicide but a foul-play). I've read somewhere that he's even dubbed as the John Lennon of his time after his death. But discounting that, I truly am in deep sorrow upon knowing his story. His broken family, his life under a bridge, his cocaine addiction, his fucked-up relationship with Courtney and a lot of things. Well maybe the fact that he has a fucked-up life and still continued living it up though for a while made me admire him more.

Maybe Kurt's death is a dream come true for him, because somehow he has attain the state of nirvana. Complete peace!


THE SUICIDE NOTE



Here's a tribute video of him


Here's a biography of him:
Kurt Cobain was born to Donald and Wendy Cobain on February 20, 1967 in Aberdeen, Washington and spent his first six months living in the village of Hoquiam, Washington before the family moved to Aberdeen.He began developing an interest in music early in his life. According to his Aunt Mari, "He was singing from the time he was two. He would sing Beatles songs like 'Hey Jude'. He had a lot of charisma from a very young age."

Cobain's life changed at the age of seven when his parents divorced in 1975, an event which he later cited as having a profound impact on his life. His mother noted that his personality changed dramatically, with Cobain becoming more withdrawn.In a 1993 interview, Cobain said, "I remember feeling ashamed, for some reason. I was ashamed of my parents. I couldn't face some of my friends at school anymore, because I desperately wanted to have the classic, you know, typical family. Mother, father. I wanted that security, so I resented my parents for quite a few years because of that."After a year spent living with his mother following the divorce, Cobain moved to Montesano, Washington to live with his father, but after a few years his youthful rebellion became too overwhelming and he found himself being shuffled between friends and family.

At school, Cobain took little interest in sports. At his father's insistence, Cobain joined the junior high wrestling team. While he was good at it, he despised it. Later, his father signed him up for a local baseball league, where Cobain would intentionally strike out to avoid having to play.Instead, Cobain focused on his art courses. He often drew during classes, including objects associated with human anatomy. Cobain was friends with a gay student at his school, sometimes suffering bullying at the hands of homophobic students. That friendship led some to believe that he himself was gay. In one of his personal journals, Cobain wrote, "I am not gay, although I wish I were, just to piss off homophobes."In a 1993 interview with The Advocate, Cobain claimed that he used to spray paint "God is Gay" on pickup trucks around Aberdeen. Cobain also claimed he was arrested in 1985 for spray-painting "HOMO SEX RULES" on a bank.However, Aberdeen police records show that the phrase for which he was arrested was actually "Ain't got no how watchamacallit".As a teenager growing up in small-town Washington, Cobain eventually found escape through the thriving Pacific Northwest punk scene, going to punk rock shows in Seattle. Eventually, Cobain began frequenting the practice space of fellow Montesano musicians the Melvins.

In the middle of tenth grade, Cobain moved back to live with his mother in Aberdeen. Two weeks before his graduation, Cobain dropped out of high school after realizing that he did not have enough credits to graduate. His mother gave him a choice: either get a job or leave. After a week or so, Cobain found his clothes and other belongings packed away in boxes.Forced out of his mother's home, Cobain often stayed at friends' houses and sneaked into his mother's basement occasionally.Cobain later claimed that when he could not find anywhere else to stay, he lived under a bridge over the Wishkah River,an experience that inspired the Nevermind track "Something in the Way". However, Krist Novoselic claimed that Cobain never really lived there, saying, "He hung out there, but you couldn't live on those muddy banks, with the tides coming up and down. That was his own revisionism."

In late 1986, Cobain moved into the first house he lived in alone and paid his rent by working at a coastal resort twenty miles from Aberdeen.At the same time, Cobain was traveling more frequently to Olympia, Washington to check out rock shows.During his visits to Olympia, Cobain started a relationship with Tracy Marander.

Marriage

Courtney Love first saw Cobain perform in 1989 at a show in Portland, Oregon; the pair talked briefly after the show and Love developed a crush on him.According to journalist Everett True, the pair were formally introduced at an L7/Butthole Surfers concert in Los Angeles in May 1991. In the weeks that followed, after learning from Dave Grohl that she and Cobain shared mutual crushes, Love began pursuing Cobain. After a few weeks of on-again, off-again courtship in the fall of 1991, the two found themselves together on a regular basis, often bonding through drug use.

Around the time of Nirvana's 1992 performance on Saturday Night Live, Love discovered that she was pregnant with Cobain's child. A few days after the conclusion of Nirvana's Pacific Rim tour, on Monday, February 24, 1992, Cobain married Love on Waikiki Beach, Hawaii. "In the last couple months I've gotten engaged and my attitude has changed drastically," Cobain said in an interview with Sassy magazine. "I can't believe how much happier I am. At times I even forget that I'm in a band, I'm so blinded by love. I know that sounds embarrassing, but it's true. I could give up the band right now. It doesn't matter, but I'm under contract."On August 18, the couple's daughter, Frances Bean Cobain, was born. The unusual middle name was given to her because Cobain thought she looked like a kidney bean on the first sonogram he saw of her. Her namesake is Frances McKee of British band The Vaselines and not Frances Farmer as is sometimes reported.

Love was somewhat unpopular with Nirvana fans; her harshest critics said she was merely using him as a vehicle to make herself famous.Critics who compared Cobain to John Lennon were also fond of comparing Love to Yoko Ono. Rumors persist that Cobain wrote most of the songs on the breakthrough album Live Through This of Love's band Hole, partially fueled by the 1996 appearance of a rough mix of "Asking for It" with Cobain singing backing vocals. However, there is no specific evidence to support the assertion.

Cobain's final weeks and death

Following a tour stop at Terminal Eins in Munich, Germany, on March 1, 1994, Cobain was diagnosed with bronchitis and severe laryngitis. He flew to Rome the next day for medical treatment, and was joined there by his wife on March 3. The next morning, Love awoke to find that Cobain had overdosed on a combination of champagne and Rohypnol (Love had a prescription for Rohypnol filled after arriving in Rome). Cobain was immediately rushed to the hospital, and spent the rest of the day unconscious. After five days in the hospital, Cobain was released and returned to Seattle.Love later stated that the incident was Cobain's first suicide attempt.

On March 18, Love phoned police to inform them that Cobain was suicidal and had locked himself in a room with a gun. Police arrived and confiscated several guns and a bottle of pills from Cobain, who insisted that he was not suicidal and had locked himself in the room to hide from Love. When questioned by police, Love admitted that Cobain had never mentioned that he was suicidal and that she had not seen him with a gun.

Love arranged an intervention concerning Cobain's drug use that took place on March 25. The ten people involved included musician friends, record company executives, and one of Cobain's closest friends, Dylan Carlson. Former Nirvana manager Danny Goldberg described Cobain as being "extremely reluctant" and that he "denied that he was doing anything self-destructive." However, by the end of the day, Cobain had agreed to undergo a detox program. Cobain arrived at the Exodus Recovery Center in Los Angeles, California, on March 30. The following night, Cobain walked outside to have a cigarette, then climbed over a six-foot-high fence to leave the facility. He took a taxi to Los Angeles Airport and flew back to Seattle. Over the course of April 2 and April 3, Cobain was spotted in various locations around Seattle, but most of his friends and family were unaware of his whereabouts. On April 3, Love contacted a private investigator, Tom Grant, and hired him to find Cobain.

On April 8, 1994, Cobain's body was discovered in the spare room above the garage at his Lake Washington home by Veca Electric employee Gary Smith. Smith arrived at the house that morning to install security lighting and saw him lying inside. Apart from a minor amount of blood coming out of Cobain's ear, Smith reported seeing no visible signs of trauma, and initially believed that Cobain was asleep. Smith found what he thought might be a suicide note with a pen stuck through it beneath an overturned flowerpot. A shotgun, purchased for Cobain by Dylan Carlson, was found resting on Cobain's chest. Cobain's death certificate stated that his death was a result of a "contact perforating shotgun wound to the head," and concluded his death a suicide. The report estimated Cobain to have died on April 5, 1994.

On April 10, a public vigil was held for Cobain at a park at Seattle Center which drew approximately seven thousand mourners.Prerecorded messages by Krist Novoselic and Courtney Love were played at the memorial. Love read portions of Cobain's suicide note to the crowd and broke down, crying and chastising Cobain. Near the end of the vigil Love arrived at the park and distributed some of Cobain's clothing to those who still remained.Cobain's body was cremated.


KURT COBAIN: ABOUT A SON TRAILER


An intimate and moving meditation on the late musician and artist Kurt Cobain, based on more than 25 hours of previously unheard audio taped interviews conducted with Cobain by noted music journalist Michael Azerrad for his book "Come As You Are: The Story of Nirvana." In the flm, Kurt Cobain recounts his own life - from his childhood and adolescence to his days of musical discovery and later dealings with explosive fame - and others often-piercing insights into his life, music, and times. The conversations with Cobain have never before been made public and reveal a highly personal portrait of an artist much discussed but never truly understood.