Taking the Big Leap

2008 I believe could be one of those years in my existence that I would have to make a big leap!

I'm almost done (well hopefully!), with my 2 years of Law School and I am thinking of taking a time off. I feel like I need a break to release the stress that the toxic law school has caused me. Another thing, I wanted to experience working. I just don't know, it's like I want to breathe a new air. I want a new atmosphere, an atmosphere that is not as stressful as law school. An easy atmoshphere where I could just have coffee and converse just about anything with people in it.

NAKAKASAWA! that could be the right term to describe what I am feeling about Law School right now. I am still a regular student, with no failing grades, and with that one could say that, "Oh sayang naman! if you're going to take a leave of absence!", and other things for that matter, but I want to give myself a chance to grow, to really stand on my own (somehow!), and I think by working I could have that!

It has been quite a number of times that I have turned back on a job offer, I always back-off when I am almost there! I guess it's time to get away with my justifications of not taking the opportunity! Baka in the end wala na!..

I guess this really is the right time to take the big leap!.. I guess it's time to leave behind as of the moment those things that I have been used to, the unrelenting support my Mom is giving me, financially and emotionally, my law school buddies who in one way or another I have shared my life with, which just happened. Those people who I have cared for yet at the middle of being together I have been untrusting and questioning their loyalty. I guess its time to prove that I am wrong.. I guess its time to really stand on my own, renew myself so that when I go back next year, I am surely ready to continue another two years of my dream!

Maybe my Last Post... for now.. until this Semester Ends!

Well. This probably is the last time I'm going to write a blog for the time being.. Back to review for the midterms! And I wanna do good badly! It's not that I want to impress people, it's just that I want to challenge myself. I want to prove myself that I can do better than the past semesters! I am just praying that everyone most especially my friends would do good as well in the exams..

I kinda feel irritated when you get to mingle with a person who appears to care for him/herself alone.. Kumbaga, sarili nya lang iniintindi nya and ginagawa nya ang mga bagay-bagay just to satisfy him/herself. Minsan siguro we just have to think for others sake as well din, hindi lang yung sarili natin right?! Give and take kumbaga, as much as possible you try to help others kung kaya naman, wag yung sariling kapakanan lang ang iniinitindi.. No man is an islang, and karma do exists!

Naisip ko lang? Tama ba ang pananaw na ito: "Hindi ako makikimingle with others that much, coz at some point these people would leave me.. Ayoko sa kanilang maging close, I don't want to invest emotions and friendships, coz I don't want to be left behind. I hate the feeling of losing someone.."

Hay, sa totoo lang I felt that way before, and it seems like the idea haunts me again.. Please help me Lord! I want to live in peace!!! ^_^