Vacation Confusion

I don't know exactly if its paranoia or it's caused by the idleness that I have to deal with during my break from law school. Either way, it is causing me sleepless nights and confusion. Everytime that I have a break from law school it always makes me think on the possibility of taking a leave of absence from law school. The possibility that I could have a job and earn. I don't know.. I'm confused again.