Timing is NOT Everything.. Balls Maybe?

Is there really a Perfect Timing for everything?

I do not know. Maybe there is. Maybe writing a post in this blog after 6 years would fall in that category of 'perfect timing'. Perfect timing to write again, to express your thoughts, rant about things you really can't blurt out in the open, so much so that you can only express them through written words available for the eyes of viewers you don't really know personally. Like YOU! reading this post right now.

6 years of total shutdown from writing a post in this personal haven of mine. And here I am again. Lost for words, yet trying to squeeze in whatever random thought I have right now in my brain, if only to find a refuge on these feelings being suppressed from the judgmental world out there.

6 years of total shutdown, and here I am, trying to figure out a way to obtain peace of mind from all the stresses that life has thrown out of my face or I allowed to be thrown at me? Either way, I do not have a choice. These stresses are quite overwhelming especially for someone who is at the point of struggling to survive this thing called life, i.e. paying bills, career growth, relationships.. among others.

Going to the subject matter of this blog post on Perfect Timing.

We all have our own story on this subject matter, and how we dealt with not getting what we desired, not achieving our goals. I, for one could say a lot of things which made me realize how vital maturity is in terms of accepting defeat or failure, and the common realization to appease oneself from all these unfavorable results or outcomes all boils down to that two words "PERFECT TIMING". People would always tell you that "IT IS NOT YOUR TIME", "BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME", "MAYBE  THERE IS SOMETHING MORE OR BETTER IN STORE FOR YOU IN TIME". All these "encouraging", "motivational", or should I say "inspirational" words to uplift that broken soul from all the heartaches brought about by such failed attempts towards your goals give us an idea that WE ARE NOT IN ANY WAY DESERVING. As a consolation, we are being appeased by those words that WE MAY DESERVE TO GET THAT FAVORABLE RESULT, BUT NOT AT THIS TIME, or YOU DESERVE SOMETHING/SOMEONE ELSE.

We often experience the foregoing scenario in competitions such as sports, beauty contest, singing contest etc.. In career promotions, and most especially in our romantic relationships.

The point of this whole blog post is for me to express my sentiments on two recent events in my life which made me realize, how it is difficult to choose between being happy and being contented, so much so that you have to give up one over the other, if only to achieve peace of mind and to cater to what truly is important factoring in the present circumstances you are into.

Let's talk about career.  Recently, I was was caught in a dilemma of choosing between a career I know I am good at and I love and a career with a good compensation. I chose the latter, for the simple reason that I needed money at that time to pay off some personal loans and other family expenses. The choice was made at that point in time wherein I know for a fact that I can be much better at what I am doing. At that point in time wherein, while I am stressed, I am happy. I have flexibility and freedom to be productive at my own pace. While the career is not that financial rewarding I still survive and get by each day.

With the career I chose, I can honestly say that while compensation is relatively higher, I am not happy. It thus begs the question: Did I make the right decision? Obviously not.  Will I ever come back to the career which makes me feel more relevant, happy and contended? That is something I cannot say with certainty right now. At the back of my head, a battle ensues between going back to the career I truly love and to a career which satisfies my current financial needs, which I cannot actually disregard.

My resolve is to go back when I am ready to forego the rewarding compensation that the current career offers right now. But will I ever get back to that career I truly love? Will it not be too late for me when that time comes that I am ready to go back? When is the perfect time to do what you truly love?

Let's talk about relationships. When you're in the middle of a 'career confusion', not knowing where you truly belong will definitely cause you some emotional and mental breakdown, and on the side you're relationship with your significant other hits rock bottom, you really would ask yourself what you did to deserve being in such a situation.

With a partner who you felt is insensitive, and misunderstood your job/career, you would really think twice whether you really want to spend the rest of your life with the person. You felt how toxic the relationship is and yet you choose to stay. You choose to stay, because you still try to look for good things in the relationship which would make it work. Then suddenly you will meet someone. Someone way mature than your current partner. Someone with a vision. Someone with a plan. Someone with a promise for you and the person to last a lifetime. You will fall for the person. You will express admiration.. and eventually love for the person...

Yes. I cheated on my partner. In those periods of time I am with this other person I met, I felt I found someone whom I could share my last breath with. Someone who will take care and pamper me with affection, not the other way around. I just felt bliss. I just felt I am myself, no pretensions.. no inhibitions.. I can express myself freely..

But it came to a point when I have to make a choice. I chose my current partner over the one I met recently. It was a hard decision on my part, but it would not be hard if I do not have feelings anymore with my current.

I could not characterize how I disgusted I am with myself, for breaking two hearts at the same time. I broke my current partner's heart with my confession that I cheated and at the same time I had to break the other person's heart when I chose my current partner over the former.

I met and loved someone at the wrong time. At a time when I have committed to loving someone.
What I had with that 'someone' was so perfect that I don't want it to end. But it would be the greatest crime of all when I continued pursuing the affair.

While I felt every desire of my heart for a partner with the person I just met recently, maybe we were not meant to be together as lovers. Truly, timing is a bitch. I meat someone in the most inopportune time. While what we felt is a genuine expression of love, it cannot proceed into something more than that. Such expression cannot attain the fruition which every couple intends to achieve. There can never be a perfect timing for both of us if I am committed to someone else. If we truly are bound to achieve that, the universe will conspire to bring us to that perfect time, that perfect moment.. A moment that is not time bound but timeless...

We really have to move on with these experiences we have.. Experiences which test our character and faith. Experiences which would help us realize the value of the relationships we build, be it professionally or romantically. With the experiences I had in relation to my career I could say what I truly love to do for the rest of my life, as along as I can, and I guess I would have to stick with that. Although there are certain factors hindering me to pursue what I truly love the most now, I know the perfect time will come. The same equally applies to my romantic relationship with my partner. I know I made a mistake when I cheated, but I will try to work things out and be the best partner I can be. Being aware of the flaws in the relationship, vis-a-vis our specific flaws as a person, I will try my best to complement the flaws with the strengths and realize that there is no perfect relationship but only a desire to keep the relationship despite all the imperfections.

Uncertainty lies in every relationship we have. We are all uncertain that we will end up with our current partners, or with the persons we just met, still we should take into account that each relationship we create is something worth living and nurturing, as only time can tell whether such relationship would lead us to that perfect moment or time where all the uncertainties are overcome by the love and commitment you have for each other..


I started the post by saying that "Timing is a Bitch" or that there is a "perfect time for everything". With all what's happened, I think there really is no perfect timing. It isn't likewise true that time bitches us sometimes, it is we who sometimes create the bitch out of the situations or circumstances we are into, by introducing external factors and allowing an interplay and intercourse of emotions, thereby creating indecision and unfavorable results. TIMING IS NOT EVERYTHING. But, balls maybe?

I believe it is more of acceptance and commitment. Acceptance of the risks involved in every situation we put ourselves into. If we do accept the risks involved then we are ready to commit to it and the concomitant consequences thereof, then we would know already the answer to every uncertainty we have mind. We will not have any difficulties in making decisions. We are the ones who can put a stop to the clock or let the clock continue ticking. As cliche as it may sound, "we are the captains of our soul".. We are the ones who will sail on to the path we decide to take on.. We are the ones who will light up the torch which will illuminate our future..

I hope I made sense with all the random thoughts above which I just want to express and somehow flush out of my system.. Truth be told, I just want to move on after all the indecisions I get to experience the past week, hoping that posting something here would help..

Moving forward, I hope I can get to write again more creative, inspiring or enlightening posts here.. I really miss writing and the peace it gives me...

Ciao!

FINALLY HAVE MY PERIOD

My Criminal Law Professor during my Law School graduation last year in his speech told us that the commencement exercises is just a confirmation that we are well prepared to take the bar examinations and that we can already include the word ATTY to our names, we just have to earn the PERIOD to it by hurdling the bar exams.

And FINALLY, after 7 months of stressful bar review, 1 month of bar examinations, and 3 months agony of waiting for the result. I've finally earned my PERIOD to my ATTY!

To God I am so much grateful and to my family and friends who stood by me during my law school years, the bar review and the bar examinations, you were really amazing!

To my blogger friends here who still visit this site despite the very long hiatus thanks you for the inspiring posts and comments.

-- Atty. Homer

The Law Student Code

Found this so-called "Law Student Code" over the net and I think it's worth sharing for all law students and those interested in entering the field of law.

Here are some of the Articles of the said code, which I could say are 100% TRUE. Thank God I've done with all of these!

For more of the Articles click HERE!

Paglisan

Isang araw palang ang nilalagi niya doon pero pakiramdam niya isang taon ng nakagapos ang kanyang buong katawan sa karimlan.

Hindi ko naman masisi ang nagdala sa kanya doon dahil hanggang ngayon hindi ko naman alam kung sino ang nagsasabi ng totoo.

Kung siya mismo hindi alam kung paano pananatilihing buhay ang ulirat sa kinalalahyan niya ngayon, paano pa kaya ako. Kung alam lang niya na sa bawat segundong pumatak iniisip ko pa din kung paano ko siya matutulungan.

Nakakaawa ang itsura nya noong nagkaroon ako ng oras na dumalaw. Nanglilimahid ang kanyang mukha na animo’y isang batang sumuot sa isang kwebang punung-puno ng sapot ng gagamba.

Napabuntung-hininga na lang ako at walang nasambit na ni isang salita. Niyakap ko siya. Mabilis ang tibok ng kanyang puso, para bang may humahabol sa kanya. Naramdaman kong humihikbi siya. Hanggang sa unti-unting tumulo ang kanyang luha.

“Pagod na Pagod na ‘ko!, Hindi ko na alam kung makakaya ko pang mabuhay ng isa pang araw na kasama ang mga taong ni minsan sa buhay ko ay hindi ko pinangarap na makasiping sa pagtulog.”

Awang-awa na ako sa kanya. Gusto kong umiyak pero hindi ko magawa. Hindi ko kayang ipakita sa kanyang napanghihinaan ng loob ang kaisa-isang nagbibigay sa kanya ng kaunting pag-asa matakasan ang karimlang kinalalagyan niya.

Tumunog ang hudyat ng pamamaalam. Gusto ko mang manatili ngunit talagang limitado ang pagkakataong ibinigay sa akin. Nagpaalam ako sa kanya sabay sambit ang mga salitang, ‘Babalikan kita, at sa pagbalik ko asahan mo ang magandang balita.’ Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit. Hinawakan ko ang kanyang kamay at hinimas ito gaya ng ginagawa ko dati.

Lumisan ako baon ang ngiting ibinigay niya sa akin. Nagbigay ito sa akin ng pag-asang sa huli ay mabibigyang linaw ang lahat ng hinuha ng marami. Maging ang mga tanong sa aking isipan. Mga tanong na hinayaan ko nalang na manatili sa aking sarili. Mga tanong na nagpatikom sa aking bibig nang makita ko ang mga paghihirap na dinaranas niya. Mga tanong na gusto kong sa bibig nya mismo manggaling ang mga kasagutan.

Alas otso na ng gabi nang ako’y makauwi. Pagbukas ko ng pinto, tumambad sa aking harapan ang kanyang litrato. Naalala ko tuloy ang ngiting pabaon niya sakin bago ko siya lisanin. Naalala ko lahat ng mga pagkakataong uuwi ako ng bahay at maaamoy ko ang masarap na halimuyak ng kanyang nilulutong pagkain para sa’kin. Naalala ko ang walang katapusang kwentuhang akala mo’y hindi kami mauubusan at wala ng bukas.

Ang sarap balikan ng nakaraan. Ang sarap alalahanin ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa’yo kahit gaano kahirap ang buhay. Ang sarap sariwain ng mga pangarap na kaunti nalang ay abot-kamay na.

Binalikan ko ang gabi na ni sa panaginip ay hindi ko akalaing magaganap. Tinanong ko ang aking sarili kung bakit nangyayari ang mga bagay na kinasasadlakan ko ngayon? Bakit sa mga oras na akala mo lahat ay nasa tamang lugar, biglang may lilitaw na aberya?

Alam kong may dahilan ang bawat kaganapang nangyayari sa isang tao, maganda man o panget. Ngunit minsan hindi ko na alam kung pinaglalaruan ba tayo ng tadhana. Bakit kailangang lagi mo nalang tuklasin ang kahulugan ng mga bagay?

Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog ako sa paghahanap ng mga kasagutan sa aking mga katanungang hanggang sa ngayo’y hindi ko alam kung paano mabibigyang linaw o posible pa bang mabigyang linaw.

Akala ko’y nananaginip ako, ngunit totoo palang tumutunog ang cellphone ko. “Unknown Number” ang nagregister sa screen ng cellphone ko. Sinagot ko ang cellphone. Tinanong kung ako nga ba ang nakalagay na pangalan sa kanilang record. Sumagot ako ng, ‘oo’. Pagkasabi pa lang ng aking kausap na, “Masamang Balita po”, kinutuban na ako.

Patuloy na binibigay ng kausap ko ang detalye at ang mga dapat kung gawin, ngunit sa mga pagkakataong iyon, para bang biglang tumigil ang mundo ko. Para bang nawalan ako ng pakiramdam. Para bang panandaliang tumigil tumanggap ng kahit ano pa mang impormasyon ng utak ko.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas at napansin kong may dugong tumutulo sa aking mga kamay. Nakita ko nalang na basag ang picture frame kung saan nakalagay ang kanyang litrato. Hindi ko naramdaman ang sakit ng mga bubog. Siguro nga’y naging manhid na ang aking katawan sa sakit na ibinigay ng kanyang paglisan.

Tumungo ako sa may bintana. Naramdaman ko ang kakaibang simoy na animoy niyayakap ako. Sa mga pagkakataong iyon alam kong kailanman hindi ako mag-iisa.

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Blog list

I don't know why changing the url of your blog also makes your blog list disappear! So for all of you who could read this post, please comment with the url of your blog so I can put it in my new blog list. Thanks! :)

Happy 71st Birthday John Lennon!

Happy 71st Birthday John Lennon!

Here's a video to the greatest song ever written!

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I'd like to repost a speech I made about him:

Music is my life. Whether or not I am heartbroken or I got a failing grade in school, music is my refuge, well aside from beer. It relaxes me during those times that I am stressed with all the hurdles a law student has to undertake just to pass his subjects. I believe that almost all if not, most of us have musical influences, not just because they write good songs, but because they impart something in their works that inspires us

For me, it’s the man from Liverpool, John Lennon. Even if I was born after his death, I still consider him as my role model. Personally, I know I would have been shattered and would have been hurt to the core, if I were alive at that time when Lennon was shot to death.

No one could contradict the far-reaching impact on popular music culture of John Lennon. Even most Filipino Bands out there could tell that they have been influenced by the music of John Lennon.

I couldn’t think of anyone at least in the history of music who stood up for his beliefs and ideals like John Lennon. He has always been an epitome of doing what he know is right and not trying to be someone else just to be liked by everyone.

He was not afraid to speak out against what he thought was wrong, and also what he thought was an injustice. He willingly took the consequences for his actions, but he was also determined that no one would change his word without a fight.

His thoughts, ideas, and actions may have offended a lot of people, but I think, he was just a person with amazing pride. He didn't care what anyone thought of him and stood up for what was right. And I think everyone should take a piece of his philosophy and live, learn and love.

In one of his interviews, he said:

“Part of me would like to be accepted by all facets of society and not be this loudmouthed lunatic musician. But I cannot be what I am not.- John Lennon

I admire people who do not have to be like everyone else just to gain the attention ofeveryone. I admire John Lennon for standing up for what he believes in and being the person he really is without having to pretend.

His message has always been about peace and love and that we should live the best we can.

John Lennon is best known for his music and his idealistic view of humanity. He believed people could find peace, and could celebrate life with music, harmony, and decency. Lennon's iconic songs came to inspire and symbolize the ideals of the masses. His music spoke to for and about humanity, and this is a gift, which not all artists have.

He dreamt of stopping war and uniting people regardless of religious or cultural differences. He along with his wife Yoko Ono became part of the Peace and Anti-War Movement during his time. He and fellow Beatles members even went on trips to talk about world issues.

A line from the song “IMAGINE”, which one journalist said, would squeeze a tear out of the most cynical among us, goes:

“Imagine all the people living life in peace. You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will be as one.”
~John Lennon

The Beatles. It all started with a dream.

The Beatles, started with a dream. A dream of a young boy who just wanted to play his guitar, sing, entertain, and make known to the world his wisdom through his music. It was formed by John Lennon, with his friend Paul McCartney.

The Beatles debuted in 1962 and within a couple of years, became the biggest cultural event in the world. They represented the change in society and became the new visionary of rock and roll.

Lennon’s success as an artist was all because of his hardwork, enthusiasm and a huge amount of positivity. John Lennon was also a person who liked to push himself, and others to the limit. These attributes inspired me to do best in whatever endeavor I put myself into, especially right now that I am taking up law.

In one of Lennon’s interviews, he said:

“You make your own dream. That's the Beatles' story, isn't it? Produce your own dream. It's quite possible to do anything, but not to put it on the leaders and the parking meters. Don't expect Jimmy Carter or Ronald Reagan or John Lennon or Yoko Ono or Bob Dylan or Jesus Christ to come and do it for you. You have to do it yourself. There's nothing new under the sun. All the roads lead to Rome. And people cannot provide it for you. I can't wake you up. You can wake you up. I can't cure you. You can cure you.”

"It's fear of the unknown. The unknown is what it is. And to be frightened of it is what sends everybody scurrying around chasing dreams, illusions, wars, peace, love, hate, all that... it's all illusion. Unknown is what it is. Accept that it's unknown and it's plain sailing. Everything is unknown... then you're ahead of the game.”

John Lennon has touched the world through his music beyond all else. He just didn’t give the world so much music and influence, he gave up his freedom and ultimately his life.

No one knows what else John Lennon would have contributed in this world if his life was not short-lived. But one thing I know for sure is that any man that has a gift like that of Lennon could only do good in this society of ours if he had only been given the chance. For this, John Lennon will live on in my mind not only as a role model but as a true working class hero.

One Great Speech

I am posting a video of the speech made by Steve Jobs in the 2005 Stanford Commencement exercise. It made my day today when I watched it. One great and inspiring speech.

YOU GOTTA WATCH THIS ONE!

Here are some of those inspiring statements he made from his speech:

"You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."

"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

Small Claims

To those who have lent money and thought they have no recourse in law or are just hesitant to file cases against their borrowers because of the large litigation fees. Here's a video from the Supreme Court which I thought I'd share with you guys. :)